The words read less like routine correspondence from a political aide and more like an emotional confession written in fear of losing someone’s affection.

“You are all that matters to me,” Natalie Harp reportedly wrote to Donald Trump. “I don’t want to ever let you down.”

Now, two intensely personal letters attributed to the president’s 35-year-old executive assistant have been published in full, exposing the extraordinary devotion behind one of the most consequential—and controversial—relationships inside Trump’s White House.

The letters do not prove a romantic relationship between Harp and Trump, and neither has publicly described their bond that way. What they reveal, however, is an unusually emotional connection between the president and an aide who reportedly controls access to him, handles messages from powerful figures and remains constantly at his side.

Trump biographer Michael Wolff obtained the letters while researching his book All or Nothing. Wolff said campaign insiders gave him photographs of the notes because they had become alarmed by Harp’s growing proximity and influence.

“The relationship here is not a relationship that should exist in a professional setting,” Wolff said.

According to Wolff, staff members discovered the notes among the stacks of articles and printed materials Harp regularly prepared for Trump. The pages reportedly carried her signature and circulated among worried campaign aides.

The Daily Beast said shorter extracts from the same correspondence were later published by The New York Times. The White House did not dispute specific passages in its response, instead denouncing the coverage as politically motivated.

“Natalie Harp is one of the most loyal and hardest-working aides on President Trump’s team,” White House spokesman Davis Ingle said.

Written during or shortly after Trump’s May 2023 golf trip to Scotland and Ireland, the letters capture Harp oscillating between exhaustion, gratitude, jealousy and an overwhelming desire to remain in Trump’s good opinion.

One note begins as an apology.

Harp explained that she panicked after apparently being left alone in a vehicle outside customs without her passport. Rather than contacting the Secret Service, she called Trump. She also apologized for walking along the golf course instead of riding in a cart and pleaded for forgiveness if she had created any additional problems.

Then the emotional intensity deepened.

Harp wrote that she wanted everything between them to “always be right.” She described forgetting to eat and sleep, surviving on only a few hours of rest and becoming distressed by the possibility that other people’s comments might lower her standing in Trump’s eyes.

Her greatest fear, she suggested, was disappointing him.

She thanked Trump for being her “Guardian and Protector in this life”—language that has intensified questions about the personal dependency at the center of their working relationship.

The second letter went even further.

Harp wrote fondly about escaping the machinery of politics while walking on Trump’s golf courses. She said she enjoyed moments when she did not have to perform her usual role as the “Human Printer,” the nickname reportedly given to her because she supplies Trump with physical copies of news stories, messages and flattering material.

But beneath the gratitude was a startling admission.

Harp said she had begun envying women whose apparent responsibility was simply to speak with Trump and “look pretty.”

“I want that job!!” she wrote.

She recalled earlier days when Trump would call and they would speak “about everything and nothing,” insisting that every conversation should not have to revolve around work. She described herself as caught between being an employee and being among the people Trump enjoyed talking with aboard planes or during dinners.

Her loyalty appeared absolute. Harp invited Trump to reprimand her when she failed, writing that he had the right to “cuss me out” because, in her view, nobody knew or cared about her more.

The disclosures matter because Harp is no longer merely a campaign assistant carrying printed articles.

She now reportedly sits outside the Oval Office, earns $150,000 annually and acts as a crucial gatekeeper to the president. Reports have described lawmakers and even foreign officials using her as a conduit to Trump. She is also said to have access to his Truth Social account.

Former Obama adviser David Axelrod called the arrangement “a deadly serious issue,” focusing on the national-security implications of an unconventional aide wielding such extraordinary access.

Harp was reportedly among the small group evacuated with Trump during an apparent security threat in Turkey, while senior officials and journalists remained on another aircraft. That moment underscored how deeply she had entered the president’s innermost circle.

The story of her loyalty began years earlier. After surviving bone cancer, Harp publicly credited Trump’s Right to Try legislation with saving her life, although medical experts have questioned whether the law could have affected her treatment timeline. Trump noticed her television appearance, and she eventually moved from conservative broadcasting into his political operation.

In the newly published letters, gratitude appears to have transformed into something far more consuming.

One ends with the words “With all my heart.”

The other closes simply: “Always, Natalie.”

Those signatures offer no proof of scandal. But for the aides who reportedly found the letters—and for Americans now learning how much influence Harp possesses—they leave an unsettling question behind:

Where does extraordinary loyalty end, and dangerous power begin?